SPICE OF LIFE!!!

Aahh…feels so good to write again for my blog…why do exams come in between!!!Any ways part of life…before coming to my topic would thanks some people who encouraged me to write this one. Thanks a lot Kanuj bhaiya and Asmita singh(one of my close friends in college).She provided me with the topic unknowingly..And last but not the least my last semester subject HUMAN VALUES: p …A day before the exam…she said:  u know “STRESS, THE SPICE OF LIFE”..ohh..She quoted well I thought.And I waited till today to publish it here..

So coming to stress now. What actually it is? Why do people suffer with it? Do we have proper cure for the same n blah blah blah…should I start defining it the way it was defined in my human values book..aasan baat nai thi..28 chapters they poorey..aadhey din me ek baar reading maar li thi..hehehehe:D ,though my friend said “tu nai pass hogi ismein..values naam ki toe cheez hai nai…”Unfortunately iskey marks nai count hongey hahahahha.after reading this much I guess you must have forgotten about your stress for a while?? Did u??  Think?????I hope so..Well the only intention of mine for narrating all this story which was not at all required here was just distracting my reader’s mind who might be suffering from some or the other kind of  stress. Everyone here has a particular task to perform and so the stress concerned with the same. We need to face it!! Cant escape..the difference lies in the way we deal with the situation. The choice is ours..whether to live with joy or a stressful life.it better to choose the first one I suppose (no body is against me I hope).Being a student I face many tough situations but me and my friends just make humors of every possible thing and we do overcome with all the difficulties (bus ek cheez ka kabhi mazak nai bnaya,wo top secret!!!! Hehehhe).

The stress could be of any kind, be it exams related,job related,stress between couples(for them would suggest go and read Hindustan times of Christmas day,my favorite columnist ,miss Sonal kalra came out with the nice column reagarding this.)so until and unless we keep focusssing on the problems we wont we able to ever overcome with this issue rather would suffer more. In case of stress do speak out about your problem with the very closed one who actually would understand it, don’t share it with the one who makes fun of it instead (many do soo,believe me).sharing your problems makes one relaxed and in some cases you may get the solution even. Alone thinking  and imaging the worst of it can lead to worst situations ahead.

Pta h meri book mein aise subtopics diye thy under the topic STERSS

1.DEFINITION

2.CAUSES

3.EFFECTS

4.CURE

And many subheadings under that..while I was going through it,I imagined..kya bakwass di h..stress bhi kuch hota h kya..agar hai bhi toe kya some points given over here are  the real causes,does it effect only these five or six ways,can it be really cured by these given points.But being helpless ,I had to vomit out all these bakwass in my answer sheet.Mujhey pass jo hona hai .poor Indian examination trend!!!

The word was discovered by man itself and so the cause and cure for it.Stress is nothing until and unless you give birth to it yourself.So next time you heading towards it,just go and speak your heart out,it works.(agar mera koi dost ise padh raha h.plzz mere pass mat aana  :D  :P .just kidding..I am always there.  J).

Read somewhere “if I live ,I enjoy,if I die ,who cares” TRUE!!!!..so mazey me jee hi lo..marney se kya milega..koi poochega bhi nai…….

Keep smiling J J,My last post of this year..happy new year,have a nice year ahead …

Was not just a fun!!!

                                 

6 lectures a day, practicals not included.Though we need to attend even those…and one substitute teacher for the free lecture..should it make us happy or irritated..well it depends upon the teacher who is standing outside to engage it. Peeped out through the half opened gate and it made us confused…he was my faculty of data structure(the best faculty in whole cs –it dept,can say the best faculty of my college).He has all qualities in him due to which he can easily become anybody’s idol. The matter of confusion was whether he is going to teach us or he will be sharing some good things with us. He is best when he teaches but he is outstanding when he comes to simple interaction with us (it could be any topic like placements, our day to day routines etc etc..).Well today when he entered he had something different for us..he said we will be playing something today  and the smiling faces(like mine :D) turned even more happy , the sad and the neutral faces started smiling(pointing towards a good start).And here it goes..

He said that we all need to take out a small sheet of paper, write your name and your friend’s name and an activity you expect your friend to do. And everyone was soo excited.aaj toe jaise kon si jannat mil gayi thi…:D  :D  …saara kuch aaj hi nikaal lengey.Everybody wrote something and the chits were collected.I asked my friend what did she gave for me…well it was ok kind of activity..Still as I said her “zaroori thodi na hai ki hmari hi chit nikal jaaye..itne bachey hain” and the same time..sir announced ASMITA WROTE FOR ANJALI…..and…I was ready to speak out all good and bad qualities of her’s in front of whole class (as she told me ).But as I was getting ready the sir announced now the game has some modifications in it.Now what you have written for your friend to do you need to do it of your own..woww…I was happy…now she was going to speak about me…she stood up..started..

She started with good one’s..She said  I am extremely(with much stress on the word)..understanding and caring…J  J apney hi blog me apni tareef…kab se mann tha mera..bus kar nai paati thi…:D  and bad quality she said that I scold her a lot(I started wondering do I ??????)  and the other was I study a lot(she said this since she was not getting anything to say…tafree mein she said this)…that’s it and she sat..now the game went and we enjoyed many activities..but the part on which sir was focusing on was that how many of us were able to perform the same activity that we expected from our friend.

As the game was ended he said: don’t expect from others what you yourself can’t do.Big thing!!!!..we do expect(I thought it was ended here) but actually it was started here.Expectations from people,from our work ,from ourselves is the only cause of all problems if we are into it.(the class went too serious after such a great fun as he spoke those words).even I started co- relating it with my own life(I am sure all must have done that).the cause of failure anywhere is only the expectations we have.We expected 29/30 but had only 25..that was the failure and the cause was expectation again.Straight forward he said that don’t expect anything from anyone and that would surely decrease your failures in life.Though you have a expectation but always have a backup with you that in case you are failed atleast you had something on the safer side that would make you stand on the same position as where you were.He must have seen all the faces and said: ‘jyada ho gaya kya.’.All laughed..han jyada ho gya tha…kaafi kuch soch lia utni hi der me…

We never thought in the beginning that his fun activity would lead us to such a great lesson.Many readers of mine would think..ismein naya kya tha..but instead of knowing all this..how many of us has stopped expecting..no one!!!.we still do.Even in my personal and professional life I do have may expectations from myself as well as from others..but the important thing is to maintain a backup!!!...

After watching serious faces(unko hmari umar k bachon k chrey itney gambheer achey nai lagtey) ..he ended the class with the mimicry session of one of my class mate(he do it the best)..and again we laughed like hell(table peet peet key..kar hi itni achi raha tha..:D :D :D)…well enjoyed my last lecture a lot that day which usually becomes untolerable.Learned even more..thanks to him..  J J…

  And then all came out with a common words..kya teacher hain yaar!!(ye humlog ka roz ka dialogue rehta h after his class…)..

Keep smiling in any situation (best friend baat bhi band q na kar de..tab bhi……….)..  J

And my pen ran out….

                               

Every night I wrote down all the things which could cause problem,

Every morning I added more of them,

And then one day,

My pen ran out,

And that day my life completely changed……

I read the above lines in the column of SONAL KALRA(my favorite columnist).At once I couldn’t get exactly what these lines meant..read it twice more and then I came out with the actual meaning .wooww…lines have much in them…yeah  ..I got the topic for my next post (the second thing that struck my mind as and when I got the meaning).so what was the first thing???why did the pen ran, do my pen also needs to  run, did I start my day and night writing down my problems, no I don’t!!!  Is it so? Hmmm….I do…I don’t…ummm…uff..I m confused now..(all this was at once in the  mind and took me in conflict…so I jumped to the next one..that was my topic for the blog).

Well I will star with the bhavartha.Many of us are busy with our work and since we have some work we do have some or the other problems related to them or any other kind of problems. Day and night we are busy collecting and thinking of our problems…(will my life end up doing so!!M I here to do this…again … I m scared) .   ’My pen ran out’..but as and when we started avoiding our problems..that day we start realizing, how beautiful the life is and we could live each day in much better way. Now many of us will think it’s easy writing not implementing.Believe me it’s that easy implementing too.

If I relate these lines to myself, then would say that I was a girl who used to be much tensed regarding the small issues ,be it my education related things or any other activities going on(which I always wanted to avoid but end up in getting much into them).But gradually when I grew up I took less of them. Till the time I completed my schooling, I was this kind of. The time I joined my graduation, I learned a little that its worthless thinking about your problems…but still I used to have them. But when I read these lines, I realized that actually taking and thinking about my problems won’t do any good for me, it would only make my days tougher to live. Now I do want to live happily, no more tensions now (any kind of), will enjoy my days (enjoying doesn’t mean less of studies.plzz..I know many of us think so..so it’s better to clear !!!!!!),won’t think of my past(bad or good),will enjoy thinking about my future plans(why should it be a burden ),will focus much on my present(it’s too good and my college life , the upmost).Transforming myself into this kind all at once was a bit difficult, but the time one decides so, it’s really easy to do so. Life is actually too short to enjoy our days and just believe, you yourself wasting your precious time with the stupid deeds..Why soo???at least I don’t want to regret after many days are over that I dint do what I wanted to since I was busy collecting my problems and solving them…(already I do have  many regrets, space out of bound now…huhhhh!!!!!  NO MORE!!!).By saying this that don’t look towards your problems or don’t solve them ,I m not saying them to run from them(of course no one can)it is the perception of seeing things you need to change in yourself, and just see how the life becomes, not a single tear will dare to shed itself(why should one shed even, one drops equals 6 drops of blood, too costly!!!).So after reading these lines, my life is actually changed (I am sooo happy).Now problems are no more in my dictionary.

The day I read this, the next day I was struck in a great problem. While in was in the train during my journey back to college from home. I was all alone and me in spite of having a.c class reservation, was declared with no ticket (I won’t narrate the whole story, because it’s really embarrassing),but d way I handled the situation(actually my soft spoken words and my smile worked..hehehe)…easily(actually wasn’t that easy, that was my worst journey ever, but again the perception thing comes!!!) reached from Unchahar to Ghaziabad in mere rupees 100.(soo nice of Indian railway ticket collectors, I really never expected that they can be so good).I was actually in a big trouble but I just kept these lines in my mind and passed the time reading novel(it was “she broke up ,I dint, I just kissed someone else”).And just last pages were left..and the  problem was all solved…

Well guys and girls do believe me it’s really worthless thinking more and more of the problems, you will end up doing nothing. May be u will achieve but would always have a regret that I was always under pressure. Do live happily….mastii mein…let problems come, face them with a smiling face (your smile works a lot, use it, do take much of advantage) kya pata problem bhi smile key samney jhuk jaye….:) .

Last but not the least…thanks to the pen..(I use cello gripper) who ran out..if it wouldn’t have …….I might have added more and more and moreee…………..am enjoying a lot now days(it’s not that I do have an easy schedule, it much more hectic than ever I had…my college, even sometimes Sundays are open..poora 9amto 5pm.huhhhh!!!).I do hope some of you will surely get what I wanted to convey through this post of mine….

Keep smiling….

ROUTINED LIFE????

                                 

HI everyone!!! A blog of mine after many days…

Today the class started with one of my favorite teacher in the college (I do have least), MR.NITIN GOYAL.Unfortnately he was late today by 15 minutes to the class but he apologized it by saying “though he made our day a bad start but he will compromise it by a enjoyable session” (everyone must have believed him, he usually makes it). It was the PDP session (personality development class).

His main aim for today was to teach us the telephonic conversations time and email writing ethics and manners. While discussing this he asked the class how many of us present in the class peruse our hobbies seriously till now….no hands up  L .He then said- its nothing new..We always do get so indulged in a routined life and forget what actually makes us happy. Even mine is 6:30am wake up, get ready, 9am to 5pm college (no bunks even, thanks to the college management   huh!!!),coming back, sleep, dinner, assignments(studying least nowadays)and gain back to bed. What we are studying today is for making our life a happy one in the coming future but what we do is exactly opposite. We tend to forget all our hobbies and things which make us happy and do indulge ourselves in the daily hectic routine. The time he was saying this, most of the heads were down... (At least range where my eyes could see) what he said not only made me to think but it really made most of us to think of.

Taking out the time for our hobbies is actually one of the crucial things of life. He then narrated a short story which came with a lesson that when the person has burdened him with lots of things, just stop for a day, do nothing and think what you have made your life!!! And you will come to know that you kept yourself always busy with others expectation but dint cared to take out the time for yourself. As I mentioned in some of my previous blogs too we do always get time for what we actually want to do, no matter how busy the life is. Unless and until one can take out time for his/her hobbies, the person can never ever enjoy (better say can actually live) his /her life.

So in his entire lecture of around one n half hour, this was the best part which I could grab it. It made me to come up with this new post of mine. (Thanks to him).

At the end of this session when I thanked him for focusing on this part of the life, he then said, it wasn’t planned for the class but what he discussed today was the same thing he was thinking today before coming for the class. That was again very inspirational (though every substitute teacher coming in the class nowadays do provide us with much more inspirations, but I enjoy his the most). Even I do write my personal experiences in the blogs of mine (I am quite bad in my imaginations).

Since I liked it a lot so thought of sharing with all my readers. Well he was true to us in the beginning(for me).He made an excellent compensation for the bad start Will just end with, though it is quite easy writing or saying that do take out the time n blah blah...but actually it’s the most vital part of one’s life. Life is a precious gift of god. LIVE IT, instead of making it a burden upon yourself.

KEEP SMILING  J

(The best thing one can do with the lips) hehehhe

WHY….

WISHING Y READERS A VERY HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY :) .Well my blog couldn’t be left with its new post on the eve of friendship day, though I am 2 days late(I had some other  work).On such a auspicious day I wrote a short poem relating to two of my friends, who were great friends ..Always for each other…but again… 

                                      

WHY does it happens sometimes

Just that name is enough to make her face shine…

WHY did she came so close to that name..

In spite of having a doubt that it was her life’s next game..

WHY……

WHY even the smallest job is shared within two..

Became natural just as pendulum which continues its to n fro..

WHY care for each other is upmost..

And the fear of losing someone grows and grows..

WHY…

WHY some days becomes so memorable..

and suddenly  the best days came to an end..

She was reminded that both were JUST FRIENDS

WHY it became so hard to make herself stable..

WHY..

Eyes wet every night

But she still fights..

She knows her wait is in vain…

 Caring for him she increasing her pain..

WHY….

WHY Sometimes when she is in a real need..

Her eyes still struck there

Where he used to show his care…

No he won’t!!! She knows..

Still a faith that of his care never goes..

WHY..

How many days does it takes to forget someone she asks..

Every day passed is becoming even a harder task

Suggested her to make herself busy..

after a month returning to me she said:

WHY even her busy schedule is full of his memories…

WHY……

WHY she still start her day wishing him

and ending with gudnyt in light dim..

She started sleeping beside her mother..

but her silent tears dint stop even there..

WHY..

Every day she tried hard to control

Ignore him, forget him..

She couldn’t …I have seen this….

WHY Laughing with others she never express her pain

Since he was d only one to know all her loss and gains..

WHY……

He taught him much in the time passed..

She won’t ever forget….everything in her  mind still last..            

WHY she couldn’t hate the cutest person she met in her life

A friend became so important for her..though she keeps denying…

WHY…..

WHY does  it happens sometimes…

Why………..w why……….

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A POST OVER MY FRIEND'S SUGGESTION..... :)

When was over with my third post, got first comment of  one of  my friend.Thanked him as at least he took his time to read it ,since many of us ignore reading these long blogs.In return he suggested something very interesting to me.n so my this post is because of his idea.Thanks to Dhruv Singh.(my classmate since 5th standard till 10th standard)

Well he suggested me to explain all my hillarious n precious moments I have have spent till now and evento tell what I used to think about my friends that time.So here I will share some of my special moments since last eight years( best part of my life,as mentioned earlier too).

Starting with the day I joined the place called Unchahar(my father's working place).I was a primary class child.Standard fifth.Day one in the school.The only girl I knew was Madhumita Chandra.Entered the class and kept my bag over the seat, as many students didn't arrived till that time.I was a bit earlier,my first day of course,unknowingly I was in the boys row(big deal that time).As the first guy entered he showed some expressions which was enough for me to understand that I was in the wrong place.Well shifted to the new desk.I thought for a while as if I was an alien entered the class as all the students of other sections were staring at me like anything.well by now the only girl I knew was sitting with me,made me quite comfortable.Then after the assembly had a small introduction and the day was good.after some days when our sanskrit teacher(Mr.Ved Prakash,our class. teacher,was on leave when I joined) arrived he asked me the simplest conversion one can ever answer,but I wasn't able to(i was very new to the subject) n the whole class laughed at me like hell.(most embarrassing ).The friends I made were Madhumita Chanrda(was a great supporter that time),Akanksha Bhatt(met her friend during kathak classes in bal bhavan),Priya Rohtagi(was always afraid of her,dont know why!!!),Kavya Gupta(I thought she was never intersetd in friendship with me),Sumi yadav(never noticed her much that time),Pragati gupta(very silent girl),Chetsi dubey(remember her first smile),Aatikah(sweet girl),Sachi Shukla,Shubhra Mishra,Priya Shukla(they joined the school with me,can understand their sitution).No boys since it was a big thing making boys as your friend at that age

.The same year I was appointed as the head girl of my house(students were divide into four houses,honesty, sincerity,freedom,friendship.mine was sincerity!!).Thanks to Ishwari ma'am Ved prakash sir n the most Saariah,my classmate(he was the one to suggest my name first  :)  ).I remember my first my photo session with my house.Me (head girl),Ankur gupta(head boy),Madhumita chandra(deputy head girl) and Dalwinder singh(deputy head boy) with Ishwari ma'am n Ved prakash sir.The school magazine is still there with me where the photo was printed !!! :)

Buy the time I was becoming succesful in making new friends., announcement of class shuffling was announced,Bad news for me!! :(.After the summer vacations we were told to be according to the new arrangement .Again lucy me!!!,Madhumita still accompanied me.Sumi,Sachi.Pragati were also there.(I was happy Priya n Kavya were in other sections).One thing that always cached my interest in earlier section was U.P.the girls especilly used to utter this abbreviation a lot and being the new one I wasnt able to understand. Later I came to know they all used to make fun of Priya and Uma shankar(one of my class mates),was quite an interesting thing for me.hehehhehe.....(umashankar.dont yell at me after reading this,,plzzzzzzzzz) 

Now it was the time for annual spots day(me very bad at spots)still cud grab a third prize snatching the tail(my mom laughed over the event much.I was little dissapointed  :( ).The december time now and it was Annual day of the school.One of my teacher(Mrs.Alka Rohtagi),she selected me for distributing prizes over the ceremony and I was told to be in lehnga with a tray decorated(today I think what a stupid job she gave me and I did it even).I wasn't there in the list of prize winners still the whole crowd saw me.woowwwwwww!!!  huh!!!

Coming out of school I remember ,once I was playing in the park with Akanksha Bhatt n others(i m not able to recollect).Beside us Uma shankar prasad was standing with his cycle.(red one).Don 't know why we hit his cycle by a small stone and then what he took the pipe(which was in the park for watering plants)and made us wet by that.We were not that innocent.His house was very near and we complained about him to his brother(he used to stay with him,not his parents).After that what must have happened to him only he can explain...hhehheheh..hahhaaaha...still feel very sorry for this incident.Shouldn't have done that.well but no sorry to him.He an IITian guy now(presently he in IIT kharakpur  :))He is one of my closest friend now(will explain later how did we became friends)

Oh my god .....I never thought that I will write this much about the single class..its much.My std 6th and 7th were quite monotonous...I wont mention...next is class 8th.(wowwwww..one of my favorite years).It needs a lot to explain.........

So soo..the next post would be about my 8th stnadard.I m not good at editing,can't cut short my years in the one or two paragraphs.....Even my readers would get bored reading that much all at a time.And this way even I wont have to think much for a new topic.Everytime some one is not going to suggest me the new topic.I know...heheheh...

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TO BE CONTINUED :)  Till then enjoy this...........

wooww..skul lfy ROKSSSSS....

FRIENDS.....only in memories or staying in touch..

Well a third post of mine
.Today while going for my class was there in the bus...1hour sitting beside the window seat and trees passing by..The things which pop up in my mind I write it over here... though not everything.I cant...

As we grow older we meet many people in our life.Some good some bad..Me being lucky.Most of the people I met...they were good.Again its your  own perception of how you see the person.We often find mistakes quite easily...i m very good at this!!!! but appreciating some one's qualities is more harder....  well coming to my point now..

Since I met many people..so do I made many friends in my life till date..my Facebook friend list contains 377 now..ohh my god..do i know these many people!!!!   quite difficult to handle.. huh!!  Amongst these some might me very close,some just good friends,some only online friends etc etc etc..

Since my childhood I changed three schools so many friends.When was too small this never came to mind that once I will leave the place,  will I ever meet them ..or would even be there in touch with any of them.When this this situation first time.I cried for a while and then my parents said..beta nai jagah naye dost mil jayengey.Was that so easy...may be yes..may be no.....still don't know!! life never stops.And again new friends .But did I ever forget my those friends of nursery ,l.k.g classes..never...our fancy dress competion(me dressed up as Chandrasekhar azaad :)) ,rakhabandhan pics of school were always in my photo album.

Again my father's transfer n a new place and a new school.It was now more harder to leave them as I passed 4 yrs with all.....can't ever forget d way we taught cycle riding to one of my friend,one bucket filled with water and many pichkarees to be filled,selecting the same colour pens when it came to return gifts in birthday parties, analyzing the colour of boy's t shirt in painting competition(kaun sa colour kia hai ...)etc etc etc...
i was so easily told to leave all this and just keep this in my memories.....should I?????at this time...not so easy.Took contact numbers of my friends fathre's or their PNT phone numbers(since mobiles were not so common).Told each other to be in touch through letters and calls.At class 5th my mind could think all that..great!!!!!!


A new place now.Really would say met  nice people over this place.They all accepted me very easily.I started enjoying with them.well I can say these past 8 years were best part of my life.School trips, annual functions,annual sports day(which was converted to spots week soon), preparations of class magazines,being class monitor and giving complains of  those whom I dint liked and saving my friends  :) ,all kind of politics(was normally involved in many),antaksharis in free classes,quiz time(boys used to won intelligent huh!!!)calling each other to know their results,our so called class parties(which always turned boring because of my class boys,quite shy) my first dream which came true,anchoring my annual function(thanks to my principal ,staff members n friends )etc etc etc...and here came the end of my schooling.now college time.No  actually no...I dint want to leave them..they all valued much for me.esp some of them.But was not possible.All went to different places again with a promise of being in contact.

But but...while I was busy enjoying my new place did I ever cared to write letters to those old ones  yes!! but only in the starting period,how may times did i called on their PNT numbers..twice or thrice..not much I guess.well I dint even received many.Did that meant that I no more remember them....??????well no..

Now when all in college,we with our own phone numbers.Its quite an easy task to stay in touch...is it so..????hmmmmm......need to really think about this. Actually we do get busy much with our own life schedule and remaining in touch is not that easy,but not that difficult if we want to.We do say "i m busy".But the reality is we always take out the time for what we actually want to do(i don't know how many of you would agree with me).

I m really thankful to the communication services which provides message packs at reasonable rates and special thaks to Facebook through which i came again in touch with all those I left far back.After l.k.g.today I know  that who all are studying what n where.Today I m in touch with all my friends starting from nursery to 12th.lucky me :) .

Today in the evening when I was siting with my old friends( me in my home during vacations) and were discussing all the stupid activities..it was actually great..........i mean really great.

Well in my point of view how hard you are busy with your life, taking out small time of yours n staying in touch with your close ones is much important.It adds joy to our life rather becoming self centered.really. Keeping my best people I met only in memories is not my cup of tea.

Life is great.Live it.Love it.And do cherish the days you passed.  :)

FRIENDS..... WHY AN IMPORTANT PART!!!!!

Well passed 18 fruitful years of my life.....still want to know that whether having friends is that important??

As much I remember...when I started my studies ....my kindergarten school....the place where I wanted to show all my talents....my biggest wish... teachers the biggest fear..and home works the ultimate tasksss...well from there i got some friends...dint knew what friendship was all about...in the name of friendship ..just knew..the girl whom i am comfortable in sitting with...could share my lunch box with her..can accompany her when it comes to sharing my birthday toffees,can give her my pencil rubbers when was asked by her...n so on...the list goes on...

School changed...not even a last bye to those friends....but were always their in the memories...a little more sensible now...now in the name of friends...the same desk,taking part in same school activities,each others lunch box,discussing home works on phones,eyes on clock for 5:30pm n all in a single park,same dance classes...........n the ultimate...MY COMPETITOR.......

Again...had to leave.....but dis time..met everyone..last night cry,gud wishes,gifts exchange,n MY FAREWELL.. really thanks to all those who did that great effort at such a small age.....more mature now.......
Starting point of my confusion...it took much hard to make new friends....but got some as the time passed...may be was there in the teenage n so all the questions were now popping up in my mind.....

well now teachers made us to sit us with our class guys..which we hated to our core...we fought with them like anything..BOYS vs GIRLS...n the universal truth GIRLS D BEST!!! :) many school trips,school functions..we all worked together..in the mean while when i was blessed with so many friends even i dint came to know...but but but..kassh itna hi smooth chalta sabkuch.........now friends used to get jealous if were appreciated for some work,some of us had a selfish attitude,to some I was unable to understand....they were quite complicated, misunderstandings ...a very used to thing.....some ditched me..I cheated some one......soriii  
:(  my full n final decision....wont ever talk........but it was good that i couldn't stand on those..those were just for months or two.....filled with ego..all negativity...  :( .....many left...some stayed.......those were in touch who went...n those who were in front of my eyes.....ego shouted....Y SHOULD I!!!!.......
well enough now........don't need any friends from now......all are same...no one is really mine...DO HELL WITH THIS PLACE N PEOPLE OVER HERE.........GUD BYE....wanted to forget everything...all the sweetest memories I gathered with them..........  no more....freindship jaisa kuch nai hota........
WAS I WRONG...i don't know.....

entered into a new phase of my life......ooooooohh..I m a college student now..college(the coolest place in our dreams...)reality is just opposite.......came in touch with new people....it was much harder to understand who was good n who was not.....my every single step..was marked...need to be much careful....I started missing my old friends... :( came to a conclusion....wai sab jyada achey they.......But as the time passed...got some good ones even there........ enjoyed my first year in btech  :)...

But again...the series of hurting each other loving each other...never endss...........it goes on....

never loose ur friendsss....................................

When its so COMPLICATED ..to handle the emotions,friends all at the same tymm....then whyyyy....FRIENDS AN IMPORTANT PART?????????

THANKS EVERYONE.......

My thanks to oll my skulmates with whum I shared my past swt 8 years of my life........ds is for ol u guyss.........hope u oll lyk ds.......

                                       

Thanks evry1 for makng my yrs so special..

It was gr8 being wd u oll….loitrng here n dr…

Frm a kid to teenage gal..

Saw much n found how life could b bright n dull

Hav many cherishing moments wd each n evry1.

Sum r lovely n sum made me to  thnk…Now hr  d end has come.

Thanks evry1….

Got sum reeli close frnds amongst u oll…

Sum stl wd me n to sum I thnk 100tymes evn to gv a simple call

Yrs pass, thngs change, n d  ppl do…..

Bt sumthng stl in d mind….

R d swtst memories…u ol gave me..reeeli thanku…

Thanks evry1…..

A yr apart frm my lovabl matess…….

Sum lonely hrs take me bak into  dose particular dates.

Tried hard 2 wash away all d days…

Bt coudnt cum out of my class my art rum..d talks in our own ways…

Thanks evry1……

D functns of skul dosnt matr much….

Bt d prepratns v did….d way v were involvd….

Has taken a special palce in heart n  mind…..

Thanks evry1……..

Days wr bst  wen  faces wr soo innocent

No hard feelings…a smile dint tuk ny rent…

Tym made lyf complctd ..

Bt u oll made it d way I wnted…

Thanks evry1….

Reeli miss u olla lott..

Wl keep missing…

Hoping for d day…

Wen wl c u ol in d same place  same corridors..

REELII…FRM D BOTTOM OF MY HEART..

THANKS EVRYONE….

LUV A LOTT……  J